To Whom It May Concern:
As usual, I have questions. I want to know how you feel about me. I want to know if your heart skips beats when you get close to me. Do you stop breathing altogether when we touch? Does your mind ever linger on me for awhile on the nights that you can't sleep? Does your body temperature rise when we catch each others gaze? Do I sometimes cause you to lose your train of thought? ...I am filled to the brim with unasked questions. Afraid of the answers and tangled up in the musings of my own heart. This ends today... if I can finally stop hiding from the sound of your voice.
If you were to ask me these questions, YES would be the answer to each one. Do you remember the first time you touched me? I felt like every nerve in my body climaxed. I'm sure you noticed that chemistry. We began to explore each other for the first time. I've never had an experience like that ever in my life. I was so sure of my control before I met you. When did I become so weak? Melting from just one touch... I blame you for my undoing. How dare you! Who gave you permission to break me down? Certainly not me! ...but after my anger dissipated, I realize how much I welcome this feeling. Maybe I'm so angry because I don't want you to know how afraid I am. How do I handle being caught up so thoroughly by you.
There are a lot of things I am unsure of but I do know that I don't want anyone else touching me. I don't want anybody else kissing me. I couldn't enjoy a kiss from anyone else even if I tried. You got me. I tried to escape it, ignore it, forget about it but the fact is I just don't want anybody else. Period. My subconscious was already recognizing and responding to you as a King before I even knew what was happening and forgive me if I'm wrong, but If I'm not mistaken I am the Queen that frequents your thoughts. Truth be told, I was yours the day I decided to plant that kiss on your forehead. You are so special to me. We can continue to take our time and go as slow as we need to. I am in no rush but I want to go deeper. I'm not afraid anymore.
Signed,
Fearless
